Papa…

Papa…

If only, 

I had a chance,

To go back in time & sneak a glance;

At that smile so bright,

And hold you tight…

If only,

You would tie my laces,

While I make giggly faces…

If only,

I could run to you for that one last time,

Hold your hand and chat awhile!

After losing my dad when I was all of six, I was brought up in a house of women. Not really used to having a father figure around, I would see my friends sit in their father’s lap and wonder how it would feel like.. after getting married when I was supposed to address this new person as ‘papa’…even that took a lot of effort and practicing in the mirror…

And while I know I would’ve traded anything in this world to know what it feels like to have my papa, I also know that he is somewhere around, looking out for me…and ofcourse, after these two wonderful ladies who taught me all that I needed to learn…

Here’s wishing the happiest Father’s Day to all the wonderful dads out there and to my rocks of Gibraltar…

Love!

Posted in Personal | Tagged , , , , | 2 Comments

The lost promise!

They’d been happily married for close to a decade now. In a perfectly settled house, marriage and career, the only thing missing was a baby.. someone to care for, to call their own. It’s not that they hadn’t tried, but there was only so much medical science could do, to change their fate!

So after a lot of deliberation, they finally agreed to do something about it. Come weekend and they left home to visit the child adoption center for their scheduled appointment. They were on their way when they stopped at a signal and suddenly looked at each other with a rare telepathy of sorts!

“They can be really nasty at times! If they miss their meds”, said the nurse; escorting them to a room where an old man and his wife were sitting by the window, staring at the blank space..

Born as orphans, they returned home holding their lost childhood!

This Mother’s Day, celebrate the gift of parents that we have and take a moment to tell them u love them.. not everyone can do that!

Image result for old couple in old age home quotes

This one’s for my mom, who is my rock…Being a single mother to two difficult baby girls was no mean feat but she made it all look easy… so if I ever get to be a mom, I know that I have really high standards to match!

Image result for she made broken look beautiful and strong look invincible

For all the strong mothers out there!

Love!

Posted in Personal | Tagged , , , , , | 29 Comments

Carpe Diem

I had my very first authentic burrito during my stay in Edinburgh.. and boy, was that the best burrito ever?! Hell yeah… I fell in love with the dish right away and couldn’t have enough of it…

A few days later, I was in Wimbledon, wandering around the streets and scouting for a good place to hog.. I stopped by at this really good looking Mexican joint and my mouth watered purely with the thought of relishing yet another awesome burrito. But guess what, when I had this one, I didn’t like it at all.. I left it after a few bites and almost got mad at the chef for not making it how I thought it would be… my benchmark was that one restaurant in Edinburgh! So I walked out of this cafe, sulking and hungry!

In retrospect, I think I didn’t give it a fair chance. I passed a verdict at the very first bite and never thought that it could taste better after a few more..

Such is life… very few people get second chances at things they truly want. There have been a few significant instances in my life where I missed the first chance..

I was a little girl when my dad suffered a heart attack and we lost him.. do I remember my last chat with him… maybe not… but I wish I had hugged him close, the night before that dreadful day..

15 years later, I started my career by moving out of my comfort zone, in a city where I barely knew anyone. I went there with the gusto of a freedom fighter and the thought of pursuing my dreams. Sadly half of my time in that city went in catching up with the new life and the other half, in sulking over things that I had no control over..

Today when I am in the busiest phase of my life so far, I often find myself missing the solitude and perks of that time when I lived alone… truly alone! Would I get those days back again? Probably not… Do I wish I would have lived them differently rather than the way I did.. probably yes!

While those days largely comprise of who I am today (and that isn’t remotely close to that girl who moved into that city with her big as hell suitcase and bigger dreams), I wish I could give them a second chance and not beat myself up so much..

So here’s to seizing the day and many more burritos!

cd

Love!

Posted in Personal, Post a day | Tagged , , , , | 18 Comments

The Himalayan Hangover

So I’m back from my long awaited trip and trying to catch up with life now… With the appraisal process just round the corner, I needed this trip to be better armed to face the bullets..

I went to Gulmarg, and I can now safely say that it does full justice to its title of “heaven on earth”…for the uninformed, Gulmarg is a town, in the Baramula district of the Indian state of Jammu and Kashmir. There goes a tick on my bucket list…

Days spent there went in a daze…literally…since the weather was pleasantly unpredictable. From snow biking to digging my feet in the knee deep snow of the Himalayas to walking aimlessly in the most scenic views of the snow-capped mountains, Gulmarg had all the fodder for my soul! The best thing was that there was barely any connectivity and the bad network gave way to deeper enriching conversations.

Sharing a few glimpses of the trip…

img_8816

Tulip Gardens

img_8695

A Brook in Gulmarg

No clue what it is…except that it’s BEAUTIFUL

Pine trees as high as you can see

Not sure if the mountains are trying to stretch their necks, or the clouds bending down!

The biggest benefit of this trip was that it led to bursting a few very strong misconceptions about the place. When anyone (that includes me) hears the word “Kashmir”, the first thought is that of violence, tension, danger, etc. None of it is true. What I realized after spending time interacting with the locals, is that they are craving for a normal life as much as we do. The place that could be thriving way more than it is currently, based on tourism, is restricted to some extent because of the perception of people towards it.

No, the place is not dangerous. No, there isn’t violence every time you step out of the house. Yes, they are the most polite people you will ever find in the entire world. And finally, Yes you must all visit it once in this lifetime to feel closer to yourselves if not anything else!

Love!

Posted in Post a day | Tagged , , , , | 43 Comments

Conquering fears

We all have a few words that we hear and no matter the surroundings, the feelings those words garner, will be unique…I too have a few such words, one of the being climbing… I can say this with utmost surety that no matter what, climbing will mean just one thing to me and that is Edinburgh! Yepp…sounds weird I know…

So the thing is that, I am acrophobic. Okay let’s face it, I have a lot of phobias.. height, water, enclosed spaces, ceiling fans (do not judge me here… ) are a few of them… anyway, acrophobia tops my list.. Last year when I was in Edinburgh, I didn’t know that my leisurely-I-want-to-pamper-myself vacation is going to end up being the one where I have done the most walking and climbing. As beautiful as that city is, the landscape had me breathless (literally).

This was about the same time, when my new found passion of “Fitness” had just dawned upon me. So I was not in the best of my shape but my spirits were soaring. On my very first day in Edinburgh, while dragging a huge set of suitcases (hubby dearest was clearly doing most of the dragging, while I was trying to navigate) we ended up in front of a long long staircase. Apparently that was what Google maps thought was the best route to get to my apartment (not so much though). So here I was….

Best Route (as per GPS)

The next day we went to see the Arthur’s Seat (the highest, most beautiful peak in Edinburgh). We had no plans to hike or trek and hence were not geared up in the most appropriate attire or shoes. However, on seeing the peak from a distance, a certain sense of adrenaline pumped down my spine and the next minute, I was on my way climbing up the peak.

Going up wasn’t as difficult as I thought and I managed to take decent breaks in between to admire the view while ensuring I don’t look down. Once on top, the feeling was beyond my imagination. A sense of exhilarating freedom and victory. Though it wasn’t that high and most people I know would do that for a normal morning jog. But it meant a whole lot of stuff to me. I partly overcame my fear of heights..

My only regret was not carrying a bottle of wine to enjoy the view up there.

Who knows, maybe next time!

P.S. I’ll skip the part where I was petrified to death while going down. So much so, that at one point I almost considered wrapping myself in a thick jacket and rolling down the hill, since that was the only way I thought I could have managed.

Love!

Posted in Post a day | Tagged , , , , | 40 Comments

Gateway to heaven…#writephoto

Holding her wrinkled hand, he was silently observing her…Unconsciously drawing lines on her now swollen veins, he traveled back in time when they were 20-something and had just started dating…

“What if you get bored of me?!”, she would say cringing her forehead… “I would never”, he said feeling the most confident than ever…

Few years later when they were parting ways, they thought that was the end of their story… “I hope you never forget me”, she said misty eyed, bidding him farewell at the airport.. “In case I do, meet me on the other side of the world”, he said with a smirk!

50 years had gone by since then, they had moved on in life, built stone walls around them with the ruins of a broken relationship and a rock solid friendship…

Lying in the hospital bed, just hours before breaking that wall and crossing over, she opened her eyes for that one last time and said,

“See you on the other side, my friend!”

So many relations in life blur the line of life and death, and who knows, we may have truly found our soulmate for life and beyond! I have found mine… 🙂

Thank you Sue for yet another thought provoking photo prompt… For rules please visit here

#writephoto

Love!

Posted in Photo prompt | Tagged , , , , | 24 Comments

Thursday photo prompt – Gold #writephoto

There I was,

Ready to open my wings to the world,

To take on the golden sky and twirl;

Yet unborn were my dreams and desires,

But she was suppressing her silent fears,

Fears that I may lose my way,

Fears that her baby bird may not stay,

But I have just learnt to fly,

And I refused to be shy.

And one day,

I will return to my nest – bold and warm,

To rest a while in her heaving bosom!

golden pathway across the see at sunset with a bird caught in the light

Thanks Sue for the awe-inspiring photo prompt… I wanted to focus only on the golden sky, but could not somehow ignore the lone bird taking a glorious flight!

#writephoto

Love!

Posted in Photo prompt | Tagged , , , , , , | 25 Comments