I had my very first authentic burrito during my stay in Edinburgh.. and boy, was that the best burrito ever?! Hell yeah… I fell in love with the dish right away and couldn’t have enough of it…
A few days later, I was in Wimbledon, wandering around the streets and scouting for a good place to hog.. I stopped by at this really good looking Mexican joint and my mouth watered purely with the thought of relishing yet another awesome burrito. But guess what, when I had this one, I didn’t like it at all.. I left it after a few bites and almost got mad at the chef for not making it how I thought it would be… my benchmark was that one restaurant in Edinburgh! So I walked out of this cafe, sulking and hungry!
In retrospect, I think I didn’t give it a fair chance. I passed a verdict at the very first bite and never thought that it could taste better after a few more..
Such is life… very few people get second chances at things they truly want. There have been a few significant instances in my life where I missed the first chance..
I was a little girl when my dad suffered a heart attack and we lost him.. do I remember my last chat with him… maybe not… but I wish I had hugged him close, the night before that dreadful day..
15 years later, I started my career by moving out of my comfort zone, in a city where I barely knew anyone. I went there with the gusto of a freedom fighter and the thought of pursuing my dreams. Sadly half of my time in that city went in catching up with the new life and the other half, in sulking over things that I had no control over..
Today when I am in the busiest phase of my life so far, I often find myself missing the solitude and perks of that time when I lived alone… truly alone! Would I get those days back again? Probably not… Do I wish I would have lived them differently rather than the way I did.. probably yes!
While those days largely comprise of who I am today (and that isn’t remotely close to that girl who moved into that city with her big as hell suitcase and bigger dreams), I wish I could give them a second chance and not beat myself up so much..
So here’s to seizing the day and many more burritos!